HEALED AND WHOLE

One day I dug a little hole,
and put my hurt inside
I thought I could just forget
I'd put it there to hide.
I covered it every day
I couldn't leave it and go on
It seemed the price I had to pay.

My joy was gone, my heart was sad, pain was all I knew.
My wounded soul enveloped me. Loving seemed too hard to do.

One day, while standing in my hole,
I cried to God above
And said, "If You are really there,
They say, You're a God of Love!"
And just like that,
He was right there,
And just put His arms around me, He wiped my tears,
His hurting child, there was no safer place to be.

I told Him all about my hurt, I opened up my heart
He listened to each and every word, to every sordid part.
I dug down deep and got my hurt
I brushed the dirt away
And placed it in the Master's hand
And healing came that day.

He took the blackness of my soul
And Set my spirit FREE!
Something beautiful began to grow
Where the hurt used to be.
And when I look at what has grown
Out of my tears and pain
I remember every day
To give my hurts to GOD
And never bury them again.

Have faith in our Loving God.
There is nothing in this world
Too big for our LORD.

May GOD bless you each and every one. -- Author Unknown

Summer

Alright, its been awhile since my last post. I've got a lot to say now. So here I go. A lot has happened since school ended. I have been home for almost three weeks now and the routine is the same almost everyday. I get up way to late in the day, take a shower, eat lunch by this time, take my meds, watch T.V., try to find a job, eat dinner, go do whatever evening activity (Church tonight), come home, watch more T.V., and stay up till when ever I feel like going to sleep doing whatever I feel like. Then it starts all over.
it is now August 4th and it has been almost two months now since I started this post. I kinda got off track during the summer. Well a lot has happened. I had a friend come over from Archie to see me, I still haven't been able to see my girlfriend all summer, and I have been unsuccessful in finding a summer job. I can't wait to get back to school. Although I don't know if the funds will be available to actually go. At this point I am waiting for a response to my letter of appeal for my financial aid, prayer on this aspect would be much appreciated. Every student loan I have applied for has also been turned down. As you can imagine the past few weeks have been stressful. We are moving across town this weekend and mom tends to get really stressed whenever we move. The new house is much bigger and newer. The new neighborhood is newer too. My only problem with it is the trees. Their so small they give off hardly any shade. I like old trees the bigger the better, as long as there are branches low enough for someone five foot tall to climb. I love you Lizze. Well thats all I got for today. God bless!!!

Sunday Night

So its Sunday night and I just got back from a weekend back home in Blue Springs MO. I'm sitting here in the Student Union with my girl. I got home and the weather was crappy and my Dad decided to get the one thing for dinner that I didn't want, Taco Bell. After that the weekend kept getting better with one exception, I missed my girl. Friday night I learned how to play Settlers Of Catan, taught my sister a new card game, played Wii with my friend and my brother, and stayed up till 2 talking with Mom and a friend I brought home from school. Saturday morning I got up at 10:30 ate Apple Jacks for breakfast, played some more cards, played more Wii while Dad and sister went to the store, switched to playing PS2, ate a bologna sandwich for lunch, played more PS2, went to Vintage Stock with Dad when he got home, played more video games, for dinner I had; homemade fried chicken, mashed potatoes from scratch, corn, and Dad's Texas style sweet biscuits (Mom's sweet biscuits only bigger); played more Wii, and went to bed. Sunday I got up at about 9, got dressed and ready for church, ate the last of the Apple Jacks, sat down on the couch and dozed off, got up again, went to church, went back home, built a fire, at lunch consisting of; grilled pork tenderloins, home fried potatoes, and cream corn. After that my friend and I put our stuff in the family van, everybody piled in and we left for Bolivar. The drive back home to school started off at the Quick Trip. Once we got on the road we played a game called See My Cow, if you want details ask. After awhile though, I fell asleep. I woke up to my friend yelling stop from the back seat to the front, I was sitting right next to him. We were at a Bullseye gas station in Clinton MO and apparently Dad had just backed into the newer mini-van behind us. Granted the gas pumps are way to close to the building so any body who parks next to the building can only get out unscathed if there is nobody behind them and Dad was only driving about .5 mph. So the only thing that happened was Dad pushed the other van a little bit. After that little fiasco I went back to sleep an didn't wake up until I heard my sister get excited about passing my girlfriend's grandparents' house on the way in to Bolivar. And so 2 hours passed in what seemed like 20 minutes.
Alright that was a great weekend but Sunday night was the highlight. By the time we got to Bolivar it was dinner time, so as quickly as I could, I ran my things up to my room and came back down. When I got back outside my girlfriend was there with my family and my friend had went back to his dorm. We exchanged hugs and I love yous then told my family good bye. We at dinner at Mellers Dinning Commons and went back to my girlfriends dorm. I guess it would be better if I told you her name. It's Lizzie, I'll leave it at that just to keep things more anonymous. Anyway after we spent a few minutes at her dorm we went to Wal-Mart and she got some chips. then we went to Dollar General and got some energy drinks. After we left Dollar General we decided to go to Dunagan Park in town. By this time it was about 7 so we found a place to park then sat and talked. She came over to my side of the car an leaned on me. Some ducks and geese came over to the car and we through chips out the window to them. After a while she turned to me and hugged me, I wrapped my ams around her and held her close whispering in her ear "I love you beautiful." "I love you too handsome," she whispered into mine then she fell asleep as I told her how thankful I am for her. Then I turned to God and prayed, thanking him for her and asking for the strength to protect her. That was the highlight of my weekend.
Blog atcha later.

End of The Week

Alright here it goes. It's Thursday night and I'm sitting in my girlfriend's dorm. I'm planning on going home tomorrow and I'm bringing home my new best friend. I went around town today to turn in job applications; no I didn't get a job and I didn't finish, I ran out of time. The weather here in BO,MO was great today. When I got up around 9:30am it was cloudy and wet. No it wasn't humid it had just rained. I love walking around barefoot after the rain. I like to splash in the puddles, it makes me feel like a little kid again. IT was a perfect 70 degrees with a nice breeze. "Alright enough about the weather I get it." Thats what your thinking isn't it? You know what, I agree. Truth is not a lot has happened this week. By the way if you have any suggestions please feel free to post them as a comment. Even if you have a question. As always I'm doing my best to follow hard after God's plan for my Life.
Oh you want to know what that entails so far? So far I know he wants me to become a Youth Pastor, fight demons, live as a Christian, always rely on him, pray continually, be a missionary, become a soldier, and win an epic battle between Light and Darkness. Yup, that about sums it up. Granted there are a few metaphors in there. Now you know where I got my blog title.
Well I'm off to read the newest Manga chapters of Naruto and Bleach, as well as watch the newest episodes of Naruto Shippuden and Bleach.
Blog atcha later

Get to know me

I am a student at Southwest Baptist University. This is my second semester here. My major is Christian Ministries with a concentration in Pastoral Ministries. My minor is in General Music. I have played the tuba for 8 years now. I am in a serious relationship with a very beautiful woman and wish to spend the rest of my life with her. I am currently trying to sell my 1996 Chrysler Seabring JX convertible. if your at all interested let me know. I have to go to class in about 2 min so this will wrap up this post. Thanks for following.

First Post

Hi Guys,

This is my first time blogging so it might be a little choppy. I had the idea to blog about my college life and my pursuit to follow God's plan for my life. Each post will probably be no more than a couple paragraphs. I'm not big on writing about my personal life so it might end up like a story more than a post. Just to let you know though my next post will be later today. Thanks for following if you already are. If not thanks any way.

Ernie,